wasted

not drunk. time spent= wasted.
iono. hmmm ive been thinking which i tend to do sometimes about my greatest fear: being unsuccessful. i mean the thought is really scary: no money,no car, no computer, no camera, no food, no life. and no life means that my designs [ which are my life] would cease. i hate ceasing. ugh the world.
on a happier note [ for me anyway ] school starts 1 week from today and im so frickin excited!.
Schedule:


1. electronic music ensemble- bruining
2. Honors English 12-schenker
3.American Democracy aka Government- mermelstein
4. Drama Workshop-zuccaro
5. Musical Theater workshop- stevenson
6. Video Production-iannacone

and im really f' in excited : ]
but thats been established. hmmm ive been reading. alot. i spent a whole day at barnes and nobles and read at least 3 books. and i got a job

i officially work at HOLLISTER. i got my member card and everything! i start work saturday : ]
hmmmm cant think of wat else to write xcept this.

I WASNT MEAN TO BE POOR- so i never will be. my demands in style and in life are too rich for the world. ive noticed tht about myself. its really badd. and unsuccessfulism will be the start of poorness. ugh my life.

My new name : Meme Juanese Van derParhm

CITY GIRL HIP POP PLAYLIST:
Troublemaker--> Weezer
Makes Me Wonder--> Maroon 5
Bleeding Love--> Leona Lewis
Mercy--> Duffy
Can't Bring Me Down--> Karina
Make Up--> Vanity 6
Dangerous--> Kardinal Offishall